The Return to Wholeness in a Fragmented World
The most spiritually dangerous moments in my life haven’t come from darkness. They’ve come dressed in light language, higher purpose and the promise of becoming ‘more.” There’s a specific kind of exhaustion that comes from betraying yourself in the name of evolution. It doesn’t announce itself. It seeps in slowly, until one day you realize: you’ve been leaking energy in a place you thought you were being filled and your entire energy field has become fragmented.
The Architecture of Fragmentation: How the World Keeps Us in a Constant State of Fragmentation
Whether we like it or not, our modern world is designed to keep us in a state of fragmentation. We’ve become walking distractions - overloaded with technology, information, conflicting narratives and constantly switching between different roles and responsibilities. We are constantly juggling information, roles and responsibilities - trying to keep everything in motion while staying upright.
The economic architecture has been purposefully designed to keep us in this state - distracted, dumbed down and heavily medicated so we don’t have the ability to be in a place of quiet and contemplation and learn to listen to the subtle cues that we can receive when we have a refined and calm mind, we are emotionally regulated, when we are physically connected to our body and we are spiritually and energetically sound.
Over the course of my own personal “healing” journey, I have sought outside counsel from people who appeared to have spiritual expertise. On the surface, everything always looks aligned and purpose-driven. But slowly, something in me began to fracture. My body would start to feel off. My intuition would begin to ping me and my mind would begin to dissect the situation.
I was being directed outward - toward work, responsibility and energetic labor that didn’t originate from my own inner knowing. What I began to see was a pattern - my field was fragmenting because I was participating in something that asked me to override myself. The guidance wasn’t emerging from coherence within me; it was pulling from me. And the subtle distinction made all the difference.
What I came to understand is that my experience wasn’t unique. The fragmentation I was experiencing personally was mirroring a much larger design - one that keeps all us split, scattered and searching outside ourselves for answers that can only be found within.
The Breaking Point That Became a Turning Point
What brought me back wasn’t confrontation or collapse - it was listening. I began tracking the subtle shifts. Before sessions, I’d feel centered, grounded. After, my chest would tighten, my thoughts would race, and I’d find myself seeking external validation I hadn’t indeed an hour before. The pattern became undeniable.
I began to pay attention to how my body felt before and after each interaction. I noticed how often I was being asked to “hold,” “carry,” or “transmit” without consent from my own nervous system. Naming that experience wasn't about blame. It was about claiming my sovereignty. The moment I stopped outsourcing my inner authority, my energy began to gather back into itself.
Coherence returned - not as a spiritual concept, but as a felt sense - my breath deepened, my thoughts slowed, and my center came back online.
And the most important thing that I was able to see was that the entire “Spiritual” system was a construct that was purposefully designed to keep us in a state of servitude in the name of a high purpose. It’s not built for our personal freedom.
Coherence: A Working Definition
So what does coherence actually mean - not as a spiritual buzzword, but as a lived experience? Here’s what I’ve come to understand.
Coherence is the embodied state of inner alignment in which thought, emotion, body and soul move as one unified field - without fragmentation, suppression, or force.
The nervous system is regulated, the heart is open and your awareness rests in presence rather than reaction. You allow YOUR truth to be felt, expressed and lived simultaneously. You remember your wholeness, which is not achieved through effort, discipline or correction - but restored through attunement, self-honestly and embodied listening.
What Coherence is Not:
Calmness, positivity or spiritual bypassing
The absence of intensity
It’s not a destination, but a living state
When coherence is present, life does not become easier - experiences become clearer. Decisions simplify. Energy stabilizes. The self no longer splinters in response to external pressure. A stabilizing frequency remains during intensity, uncertainty or transition, anchoring you into your personal sovereignty rather than survival.
The Collective Initiation: The Road We've Traveled: 2020-2026
In order to understand how we get here, we first must understand the road we have travelled since 2020 that has invited us to look inward for where there was distortion in our lives and show us a path forward to this place of coherence.
2020 (4 Year): Foundational Collapse. The year reality cracked open. Systems broke so the truth could be seen. Stability was challenged at the root.
2021 (5 Year): Instability & Awakening. Everything accelerated. Freedom was demanded and often chaotically. Nervous systems were stretched.
2022 (6 Year): Responsibility & Healing. People carried more than they could hold. Themes of family, duty, grief, and repair surfaced strongly.
2023 (7 Year): Inner Reckoning. A turning inward. Spiritual questioning. Disillusionment. Many realized the old answers no longer worked.
2024 (8 Year): Power & Sovereignty. Power dynamics became visible. People learned where they were leaking energy - and where to reclaim it.
2025 (9 Year): Completion & Release. A year of letting go. Old identities, timelines, relationships and roles fell away. Emotional composting.
2026 (10 Year): Coherent Rebirth. This is not a frantic “new beginning,” but a stable one. A return to center. A life lived from the zero point.
Why 2026 Is Different
If you look at it from the perspective of numerology - the number 10 carries two numbers with it.
1 = Initiation or Rebirth energy. This is where the foundation gets laid down or reinforced if it’s already fairly intact.
0 = The Zero Point. Some could call this source point energy - the void - the nothingness where everything is birthed from. It’s all about action guided by alignment and movement rooted in stability.
This is an inner job. The outside world will look different not because external structures have changed, but because the inverted systems that demanded our fragmentation are collapsing - and what rises in their place will be built from coherence, not compliance.
The Practical Path to Coherence
Where can you find coherence in your own life?
Recognize the symptoms of incoherence:
Where you feel split, exhausted, reactive, numb
Where your actions don't match your values
Where you say yes but mean no
Cultivate the conditions for coherence:
Nervous system regulation (the foundation)
Embodied honesty (feeling what's actually true)
Energetic boundaries (where you're leaking)
Consistent practices that return you to center
Releasing what's been composting in the 9 year
Live from coherence:
Making decisions from the zero point - sit in a neutral space and let the field reorganize around you. This might look like waiting three breaths before responding to a text, or sitting with a big decision for 24 hours without seeking outside opinions. Not as avoidance, but as allowance.
Speaking and acting without inner contradiction
Staying whole through intensity
Trusting the clarity that emerges
The Choice Point
As we enter a new chapter as a collective, we have an opportunity to choose a new path. This evolutionary journey that we are all on comes with free will - and the power to choose differently.
This isn’t about getting it right - it’s about allowing yourself the freedom to be with yourself. The world doesn’t need more fractured achievers; it needs more embodied humans.
What would change in your life if you were to choose coherence over compliance and presence over performance?